I’m not going to beat around the bush in this article, but I will explain a bit in detail about my decision.
I am going to fade back and no longer cover Kentucky Athletics the rest of the year for football or basketball. The Utah Valley game was my last game covering this season (unless there’s an urgent need). I know the immediate reaction from some might be, “What? Why? You’re crazy! You’re going to skip out on sitting on the court taking pictures of future NBA Stars… what for?”
I need some help. I need some time away. I need to re-prioritize so much in my life and focus on things that actually matter at the end of each day. That isn’t taking a shot at Kentucky athletics, but when it comes down to it… at the end of the day… if Kentucky wins or loses… it doesn’t change who I am. The problem is with all the driving to and from Lexington (from Northern Kentucky), the parking a good distance away, and the constant attention I give to Kentucky athletics… I’ve felt so many areas of my life fade away and I’ve lost track of who I am. I need to focus on my family, friends, and most importantly… faith.
Let me share something… when I’m replacing my quiet time with the Lord based upon how many “likes” or “retweets” my stuff gets… you know you’re not in a good spot. A picture of Benny Snell I put up was RT’d and Liked a bunch which made me feel ‘validated’. My validation should not come from social media. That’s where I put so much weight though.
Ironically on Friday (same day as the Utah Valley game), I heard the following lyrics from an artist named Ceej.
“I started looking at people to give me confidence. I started replacing Scripture with their compliments.”
“So concerned with my brand, that I ain’t minister… I advertised… and y’all accepted it, y’all just took whatever… there’s a difference between the anointed and who look better.”
Those two lines hit me so hard… y’all have no idea. I can look like I have it all together, but in reality… is that the case? God is good, I believe that. At the same time… I need to live like it.
I want to thank all those who have supported or liked my articles from covering the story about Eric Cremeens to Mark Stoops using a picture of mine on his Twitter account… thank you.
Please keep me in your prayers as the season goes on… and remember somewhere in Northern Kentucky, I’m saying… “GO CATS!!!”
P.S. I thought the cover photo I took for this article does a dope job giving a visual to me fading away… sorry… that was a terrible plug.